A few days ago I found this song while feeling a little down. The funny thing is, it took two days for me to understand what the song meant for me to be able to set down and do a blog and write about it. Right now many of you may be thinking about what I was sad about and that will come before the end of this post so where shall I begin.
Since I moved to S.C. I have tried to adapt to being even more isolated that I have been in a long time. The sad thing is however, that I still do not have a life and that is the one thing I am tired of. When I think back about things. I have wasted much of my life because I didn't want to go out and trust people again. Yes, I had my few friends but we didn't really go out.
My roommate Alicia, her mom and I are about to move soon. I am a little nervous though because I don't want to continue not having a life. I want there to be time for me to do whatever, even if that means going to Starbucks with Alicia and having coffee while talking about guys are whatever cross our mind. Yet again another beginning.
Hopefully this will be the time that I will be able to afford the things I want to afford. As mentioned before, I want to be able to get my nails done, my hair done, and my eyebrows waxed. I want to be able to buy an outfit once a month or at least a pair of shoes. I couldn't do it when I moved to SC but I didn't transfer my job like I will be doing when I move. This makes a big difference.
It is funny how when you are sad, you have songs that make you work things out and think about why you feel the way you do. That is what the song I posted at the beginning did for me. It made me think about all things and now that I am thinking about it, we have so much going on that we don't stop to realize that there is more to the picture that meets the eye. Thinking of this song, me moving from Texas even makes since. Once I left Texas the first time, I became a different person. Even though I claim to be a country girl there is more to me than that. I crave and love my family but I have to find a place that I can feel comfortable enough to call my home. A place to start my family I guess you can say. If you look back in history, many people had the same idea as they traveled to America and started their family. I will find that place. For many, leaving home is not an option because there place right there. Then you have some that find their place within the same state. It depends on who you are and who you become. So as the song goes...
"Hey Hey My My
Rock and Roll can never die.
There is more to the picture than meets the eye..."
Until next time....Stay Safe and Blessed Be!!
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