Once upon a time there was this girl who grew up in the wrong body. She was always unhappy and as a result was a very quite person. Part of the reason was because she grew up in a country town so small, every one knew who she was and who her parents where. This girl always swore that she would get out of the town and one day moved to New York City. After moving out on her on and from one town to another, each one bigger, and then from city to city; she finally made it there. And that is where the story really began.
Sitting here on another cold Sunday morning I think about all the changes in my life. Even though I grew up in the country it seems it is taking some time for me to adjust back to the country life. Have I really been away from the country side so long that I it will take time for me to adjust? I think what my biggest problem is the fact that since Austin TX all the way up to Denton TX, I have lived in cities where there are public transportation. Now I am in a place where there is none. Without a car, I don't feel like I am independent enough because I can not go where I want to go without having to ask for a ride somewhere. Also, when there is no transportation, it is slightly harder to make friends as I had in NYC
It is amazing how something so small as public transportation can make a difference in a person's life. Now days you have to have a drivers license and a car if you don't live in a major city. This is only one thing that can make a difference in someone's life. Another thing that can make a difference, at least when it comes to someone like me, someone of transgender experience is how well that person is perceived and accepted. When you live in a small southern town or city, I guess they way you carry yourself is really important and even then you have those who refuse to understand.
At my new job, I already had someone complain about me. They did this for no other reason except for the fact that I am who I am. I am lucky enough to be working with a company that does not tolerate discrimination and is behind me every step of the way. I am also luck to have a friend and roommate that is supportive and behind me every step of the way. This incident however, does make me miss my friends. The ones I made before NYC and the friends I made after. These friends I can go to with anything and talk and as much as my roommate/friend is supportive sometimes, I feel I can not do that without him feeling I am making a mountain out of a mole hill.
As I have always said though, I love a challenge. Because of my love for them is why I decided to move from NYC and back to Texas. I said I wanted to connect more with nature and I suppose this is one of the reasons, I got the opportunity that brought me to South Carolina. This journey is making me the woman I am today. And so I leave you with a quote a made up a while back. A true Diva is one that can overcome all obstacle and adapt to situations without compromising who she is. Until next time.....be safe and Be Blessed!!
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